It’s been a rough few weeks with back pain. I’ve been trying to stick with the program, but have been eating oatmeal and toast with the Advil to help with nausea. I missed a weigh-in last week, and met with Carli yesterday. I’ve lost one pound of muscle and gained one pound of fat. I’m calling that breaking even considering how difficult things have been – the back pain has been grinding on me mentally as much as physically, and I could not get relief from it in any position or with ice or with many of the other methods which have worked in the past.
At least I have recovered enough to swim some laps – just up to quarter of a mile instead of my usual half a mile. But no CrossFit, bike riding, or hiking. Hopefully after Thanksgiving I’ll have the pain down enough to start doing more of the activities I want to. And now that I’m not taking regular Advils I don’t feel the need to buffer my tummy with starches.
This all started because I wanted to try yoga. And I did that because I am working with a peri-menopause coach trying to figure out a way to minimize the anxiety and insomnia which keeps hitting me since my hormones went nuts about a year ago. But yoga is just not for me! My spine hates it and lets me know.
At the time that I started peri-menopause, the struggles with weight loss started too. I keep getting down upon myself and expressed that yesterday when I met with Carli. She reminded me that things are happening to me that are far more important than the weight loss:
- I am making better choices about what I choose to eat.
- I don’t have desire any more for sugar, sweets, or my previous sports drink a day habit.
- I want the veggies.
- My good choices are showing in my skin which I am complimented upon frequently.
- I’m making a healthier future for myself, protecting my life from cancer, diabetes, and other health issues.
So the weight loss will come if I keep working on it. And I will because I want the exterior to show all the good stuff that is going on in the interior!